Is this a tooth?

Is this a tooth? Please tell me, cause you all know I am going crazy!! Ella had her first tooth at 5 months old, Briar is officially 9 months old today! It's the right tooth on the top, just a little white coming through near the bottom. It's hard to see because of the flash... have no fear followers, I will update with new pictures as the mighty white emerges!!!

What do you think???

Anyways, we had physio today and it was great. Sue was happy with her muscles and they weren't too tight, even for someone who isn't mobile. We played on the ball and Briar stayed awake the entire time! Holy Mackerel!

I have been spending a lot of time reading other parents blogs for 1P36 and although inspiring, it brings up a lot of memories that I would rather forget. It also makes me want to skip ahead to the future (but I also don't want to miss anything!!) I am feeling rather down lately. Charles is gone to hockey all the time (he is in Ottawa as we speak and hopefully had a visit with the Boisvert's!!!) I think it could be the "returning to work and not having day care" thing or just seeing no progress with Briar. She is wonderful and amazing, but some times I want a baby that can coo, crawl, smile and return my love. I never know if she loves me back. So I am left wondering if she is happy, or will she ever be? I love her so much and that will never change, but seeing babies her age is really difficult. Of course I would never say that out loud.

Carol and I went to Chapter's a while ago and we saw a nine month old baby girl, standing, making sounds, playing... I wanted to cry. My daughter should be doing those things. I guess I need to mourn the loss of a lot of things for her. I never imagined having to do that, but it is a reality.

Anyways, I need that little cry and bitch. Now I feel better, and I must go on, so I bid you adieu. XO Ashley